bucket list

My bucket list

1)Spend a month in a small village in Russia

2)Teach a 500 people yes!+ course

3)Shout at the top of my voice,like tarzan in a crowded shopping mall

4)Walk up to a random girl and say

"Aye! Aathi kya khandala"

5)Spend one whole day with Guruji

6)Get a six pack (Sigh!what a distant dream)

7)Write a fantastic, refined novel

8)Visit Bodh gaya

9)Own a freckin canon 5d mark II with a manfrotto video tripod and the best video mic

11)Own all the dslr rigs including a dolly!

10)Take a sabbatical for 1 year and just drift between Greece.China.Russia.Sweden.India.Alaska.

without carrying my cell phone.

11)do 4 back to back advance courses.

12)Have huge library of my own with thousands of books.

13)live atleast 30 percent of what is taught in Astha vakra geeta

14)Have a hitech room filled with books and all apple gadgets!

15)Drive to the middle of nowhere and spend 2 days locked a car.

16)Read entire mirza ghalib's poetry.

Okay...i know the followers of my blog(imaginary),will not read the entire post if it is too long...so i will keep it simple....

somethings i have learnt recently:

1)the proper explanation for fake it you make it(given by guruji during one of the satsangs)

it was damn brilliant..."exploded" my mind off...

2)grace will flow, when you take up something, which you think is way beyond your capacity.

3)when in silence,with head bend down, while walking,eating, etc, it is possible to not look at anyone's face, girls esp, no matter how pretty you think she might by looking at her toes.

4)its not about the organization. Its about the people in it.

5)sexy bhav ko saskhi bahv sey dekho -- jiggy bhai!

6)i can never get bored of doing advance courses and being in silence(just completed my 7th)

7) Except for moments of immense clarity, which dawns from depths of silence, I generally,fail to see things for what they are...to just observe the "issness" of things as is said echkart(notice that his name rhymes with itch guard) in his book " power of now"

and if i only fail to see things as they are...it is obvious that you too would also be utterly hopeless at this ;)

8)drop all concepts,all identifications, in fact even the burden of words of knowledge..the only truth is the the guru's silence.Soak it in and chill.Become innocent.If you are not,then fake it till you make it.

9)If you think AOL, is an profit making or money making organization or whatever, then you are suffering from a rare condition called "premature intellectual ejacul...tion".Get well soon.

10)sometimes it is good to football of someone else'e opinion.Just make sure it is the right person.

ps: if you exist, comment!

My first quatrain

The first love will never die
in the silent symphony of life it will always lie
empty promises, unspoken words,clasped hands and smiles so sly.
will nudge the heart to the pang of days gone by.

quatrain by vikram seth

I will be easy company;the blur
Of what i had longed for will fade to space.
No thought that could discomfort you will stir.
My eyes will painlessly survey your face.

hope with reason now laced

attempts to assuage

raw wounds of love,

simple and unfilled

have failed;

i wonder

now and then,how would it be

if,only if!it was you and me.

The few times we met,

i can never forget,

i wish i had never met you,

god and his cruel games!

of love or fondness for you,

i have no claims.

what are you to me?

a friend?

an acquaintance perhaps?

i wish i knew,

these nebulous feelings i have for you!

memories,images from the fleeting moments of togetherness

are now etched forever in me

-your gentle smile,your innocent eyes,your voice-

ah!bliss!

lets meet once,

or twice if you agree!

just the two of us,

that will be enough before you go your way,i promise!

i will notice all the nuances-

the colour of your eyes,the shape of your eyebrows,

the shade of your lips,the tone of your laughter-

It will give me

memories,enough to meander through my life.

what about me you ask?

what will i do ?

well,let me see.

you have asked a tough question,

i should thank god,perhaps.

for the gift of memory,

memory!,

that wonderful talisman,

which binds you to me

god is not so cruel afterall,

my apologies.

fine i broke my specs!

but this time too i did it in style,i sat on them and heard the bitter cry of the delicate frame that held the other pair of my eyes.

"u moron",it shrieked.

I simply got up, looked down and smiled at it .

"Accept people and situations as they are" ,i told and being the satvic spectacles that it is ,it acquiesced.

"Get yourself a new pair quickly ,you semi-blind fellow.Remember i was your spare one! ",it said ,but this time there was a tinge of love.

"Yes!",i said

I was almost a little maudlin at the unexpected loss,because it had served me well,for 7 whole months,before it's soul got squashed under my weight (not that i weigh much).

Also it's departure was the least dramatic when compared to the way i lost all other specs .

Here i should mention that i added an extra pair of eyes in my 6th class,as a consequence of addiction of the need for speed game .Consider for instance, the way i lost my specs in my first year in bits.I was sitting on the bike(driven by senior) ,coming back to the campus ,after doing some work for a dept in panjim.The senior was driving at close to 85 k mph."This is awesome man,so cool",i shouted,feeling like one of the those characters in dhoom(whats the harm in imagining!).

In an act of extreme foolishness i slightly turned my head back ,god knows why.The next thing i knew was that my specs went flying into the air and fell on the road,now a bike at 85 kmph needs time to decelerate and come to an halt.So after walking for five minutes ,i saw my specs.

But alas!as i was crossing the road to get my specs,a speeding tata sumo ran over it,crushing it into pieces.I saw it!That grotesque sight of shattered glass,a slight tint of red (imagined) symbolic of its demise,accentuated by the ugly goan sun.

I thought of running behind the sumo like the hero's we see in movies,but the agony was too much!

anyway ,coming back to the specs i sat on.So,i lost my specs and did not have the time to go to vasco and get a new specs.Also i was wary of getting my specs from a lousy place like goa.From Bangalore i thought.I will get it done in Bangalore.

But in the intermittent period my life was blurred!

I become a vision-erry.

here is how:

i was walking with friend of mine and said

"my god!who is this guy,he is all tall as a tree"

my friend was non-plussed.

"kahan bey?",he said

"abey ,aggey dekh,itna lamba tho hai ",i qupped and pointed my finger at the "outline"

my friend burst out laughing .

It turned out to be tall tree,not a tree-tall person.

Or consider this:

during the pooja for navratri in the aol ashram ,i sat far behind the place where the pooja was taking place .But i made an attempt ,whenever i was not asleep,to see what was happening from the screens put up.

So,i saw, what i thought, was a couple getting married and the girl taking guruji's blessings and i said to an lady sitting next to me

"what a lucky girl!"

The lady gives a puzzled look.

I return the look back.

And i realize nothing as such happened there.

Accept people and situations as they are!

Ah!summer vacation will come to an end tomorrow!
What a wonderful summer i had.The internship was fun!
Here are the things i will remember and cherish forever-
1)first and foremost ,the miracle.
How vishesh remembered me and invited me to come over to his place is still a mystery and i know it will always be.The internship was great because everything was so very beautifully taken care of.
2)kiran's OMG'S and WTF's and "Seriously dude".
3)K.Gopalakrishna comments after the second gd.
4)Ascendas food court ( and a girl i saw there ;) )
5)Surendran,a wonderful human being and our PS-instructor .
6)kiran sitting on top of magesh in the car ;)
7)some long chats on gtalk ;)
8)the seminar hall
9)Hot scientist
11)ps mates-sriram,mangesh,omg.kiran,Vishesh
10)The script me,sriram,mangesh,vishesh made.
It is called "Rajnikanth's back"
expect its release in 2090 august 1.
11)Saravana bhavan ghee roast
12)Rossetto in Little italy
13)Daily breakfast in the car.
14)visit to Murragan idly shop on the last day of the ps!
gosh!i was almost emotional
15)meeting "-------" during a celebration ;)
16)Amar and veenu and satsangs in their house
17)Peppy singh- their dog
18)Naresh.if not for him i would have got a B.He is the epitome of compassion :)
19)doing time pass in coffee day.
20)Vishesh mom's affection :)
21)Chotu's batting style
22)The maiden over i bowled when i played cricket for the first time in 3 yrs!
23)Ankita's jokes
24)Satyam cinema's
25)the larceny of chennai auto drivers.Never say anything remotely offensive about rajnikanth.
Never!

and many more!!!

a poem after a long time!

come here,sit close to me

let everything else just be

hold my hand tight

forget all your worries on this start-lit night

Under the moon's resplendent light

your sly smile is the most beautiful sight

with you in my life ,everything feels right

how can i not love you with all my might?

read this somewhere recently-

can u plz throw some LIGHTNING on this ?

lol

you would have heard tales about hyderabadi hindi ....
but what u probably dont know is hyderabadi english...
here are few gems
1) hey dont make volume
what this actaully means is "dont talk loud"
2)stand in a straight circle
cant really intrepret this one...what is it a circle with infinite radius ?

how to become mad ,slowly ?
very simple study "basic electrical engineering text book" by tata mcgraw hill written by two profs.
sanjay best summed up the book .
he was reading dc motors from the text book ,when under extreme frustration he said
"what the ....,!!!i cant even understand if i am understanding what i been trying to understand "
half an hour later when i was by-hearting the slides ,i heard strange sounds like
"aeeee dc motorooo" ,"hoho inductionssss","magnetic feeeeeeilddddduuuuu"
it was sanjay.
another victim.

50th post

this is my 50th post .my half century :)
i thought i would write some philosophical poem which would make me look "intelligent,intellectual,attractive",but then why give you a false idea?
and besides i am realizing the value of keeping things simple

so i will instead share an experience that i had some months ago.

As usual i woke up at 10am or something like that and decided to go the institute cafeteria to have breakfast .
while walking from the hostel to the cafeteria i kept imagining the masala dosa and mazza combo i would have .
But alas !no masala dosa.
even more shocking ! no plain dosa !
but because of all the soham and sowhat , i could face the situation with equanimity
"which god-forsaken place i have ended up in ?!!!,cant even have proper breakfast"was my immediate reaction
the only thing available was non-edible upma and dahi vada .
i chose dahi-vada .
the guy at the counter put 2 tiny brown balls in a plate ,covered it a spoon of dahi ,handed it over to me with a smile and charged me 15 bugs for that !!!
"bakodia institute of technology and science will have better food options than this yaar ",i kept grumbling in my mind as i took my seat .

but another punch !
the dahi vada was delicious.yes it actually was.
my effort to get up and walk so far was worth it !
my commitment to get up early in the morning was now paying rich dividends
what a great start to a day!
dahi vada rocks.life rocks.

while walking back it came to me in an epiphany that i would pass by the library .
i stopped walking.
i started thinking.
should i or shouldn't i ?
Is it within my range of socially,morally acceptably behaviour to enter the library at 11 in the morning and study a "subject ".????
the answer on a normal day would have been NO.
but today was different.today i had Dahi Vada.
I took the plunge .sometime in life you just have to .There is no choice.
I entered the library .
I felt a little hazy ,like in a trance.
I remembered that to get a text book issued, one had to go the counter where a sarcastic librarian sat ,give him the id card and chant the name of the book.
I took my id card out and deep breath in and started walking to the counter.
A walk to remember.

The librarian was working on the computer.
It was all very eerie.

Then what happened next will remain a extremely embarrassing incident in my life.
A remainder of what deviating from the socially acceptable behaviour can do

"one plate dahi vada",i said in the library counter.
the librarian stopped working.
he was shocked.he was non-plussed.
never in his 30 year career had any student asked him for dahi vada .
but i did it.
he looked at me in the eye.
it was too late . the damage had been done.
i turned and left ,the library to the cafeteria.
:)


have u done anything that can match this degree of stupidity ?
let me know

watermelon

one of my friend's has been struggling with hindi right from the first year.
he is from andhra and had no inkling about hindi what so ever before coming to bits.
few days ago he went to the fruit stall in the campus.he wanted to buy a watermelon.
but the guy at the fruit stall knew only hindi .

fruitwallah : kya chahiye ?

silence.....
after thinking a lot for 20 seconds about what water melon is called in hindi ,he decides to take a guess ..

myfriend: panimelon dho!

lol
:)

pics from the last day of the latest yes!+ course in bits.
the next course will start from April 2.
haven't started working for it till now though :(

An excerpt from Shantaram:

And that was the elated moment i'd called glorious,in my mind,as i ran into the guns:that stupid waste of lives.There wasn't ant glory in it.There never is.There's only courage,fear and love.And war kills them ,one by one.Glory belongs to god,of course.that's what the word really means and you can't serve god with a gun.

the best days of my life

This sunday i went to go-karting with three of my friend's.It was such fun ,especially because one of my friend ,who had made tall claims about beating the others on track ended up being the slowest among the four .I would overtake him with ease and then look behind to put a thumb's down signal and would break out into a free laughter ,the sound of which echoed in the helmet i was wearing.It was then that it came to me in an epiphany that i was living the best days of my life,these days in bits with friend's and freedom.We are all bonded by our idiosyncrasies and craziness.God bless these days! :)

The start to the new year was amazing . I spent it doing the yes!+ advance course in Bangalore ,my 4th one ,but i felt so very different this time around.The knowledge has finally insinuated into my mind.There were close to 30 students from bits , pilani and goa put together.We guys had a 45 min meeting with bau :)and it was great fun.I have been attending classes this sem ,well atleast a few of them .Some of the faculty members are pretty good this sem like ranjan dey or amalin prince.
I have been reading "Shantaram" and this activity keeps me occupied in the evening.But i have;nt read any book which can match the sheer brilliance of "A Suitable Boy " written Vikram Seth.The booker prize winner "The white tiger" also falls short in comparison as far the eloquence in writing is concerned with .Do read the book .You will love it and Vikram Seth himself says"pick the book up before your you sprain your fingers and good sense prevails"

Nothing has remained of the past
blurred into emptiness so fast
neither joy nor grief did last.
-Harsha

"Aasangoham",one of the most beautiful words i have ever heard in Sanskrit.Has an amazing ring to it .The meaning is even more striking.It means"I cannot be touched ",events may come and go in life ,judgements may rise and fall,yet i cannot be touched .Through sorrow and happiness i cannot be touched.Through sickness and health i cannot be touched .
So whenever you feel overwhelmed by events suurounding your life.Just remember -
Aasangoham!